Moody

I feel old. Today is my last day as a kid. Or at least that's what it feels like. Tomorrow is my 18th birthday, and it TOTALLY is putting things into perspective. I decided I'm applying to Moody Bible Institute for next year, and ever since that decision, I've been stressed out, freaked out, and totally stuck. They have FOUR entrance essays, yes, FOUR! And they're all questions that I should be able to answer really easy, (i.e. what are my views on family worship, authority, the Word of God, discipline, etc.). And I can't for the life of me finish these essays! Normally I can crank something out ya know, they only have to be 500 words, that's not even 2 pages. But everything that I say ends up looking stupid or totally cliche. I. Am. Stuck. Should I take that as a sign? I began to question why I really wanted to go to Moody and major in Youth Ministry. Did it just seem like a cake major? Nothing too hard or complicated like, lets say, bio-medical engineering. (That's only for genius'... ALYSSA!) ;) Did I just want to go to Moody because it's tuition free? Is that the reason why I can't seem to find the words to answer these seemingly easy questions? Am I afraid? Well, actually, it's kind of ironic, I'm totally not afraid to admit that I'm afraid. I'm completely freaked out. I don't want to grow up, I want to stay here forever, it's comfortable and familiar. Why oh why do I have to grow up? I love being a kid. But then I take a hard look inside and realize that I HAVE to grow up, it really is the only way to do things. So I open up my essay, for the 531st time, and start plugging away at the keyboard. When suddenly, glory, joy, hallelujah, I'm onto something! I know exactly what to say and how to say it when the 2 worst words in the entire english language pop up on the screen "fatal error" and everything closes! No, can't be! I've worked 3 weeks on these essays! So I figured that's that. I will NEVER be able to remember everything I put into those pages, and there's no way I'd be able to rewrite them in time. That's it, my Moody obsession is over. I resign to the fact that I'll just be at COD next year. I open up my flash drive to work on the paper due tomorrow when what do my eyes see? "Auto saved version" of my Moody paper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT! I didn't even know computers did that!! I opened it up right away and saw that my paper, in it's entirety, was saved.
Now, if that's not a sign, I don't know what is. :)